Just like last summer I have started working out. I really have missed it. It is so much easier to wake up in the morning and start the day with a work out. I also started tumbling. It is the best exercise. After a week of running and different body workout with weights, I felt sore but it was nothing compared to a workout in the tumbling gym. I feel it in my abs, legs, and butt, which are the hardest to work out in the regular gym. Last year I lost 20 pounds throughout the entire summer which was awesome. I gained about 5 pounds throughout the school year, but it feels like a lot more. This year my goal is to lose 10-15 more pounds. It has been a challenge. I weigh my self every day twice a day. I have lost 0 pounds. Which is a little discouraging but I do feel stronger. The fact that I can still do a standing flip flop and I'm working on aerial is making me feel better with my strength and body.
This past Sunday was Father's Day. I wish I got to spend a little more time with my family but there was a lot of drama going on. My family on my Dad's side has been fighting a lot and it all started with something super small. All my life I have been accused of this. Making small things into big things. In fact just last night someone said that to me. It hurt a lot because I was just trying to communicate my feelings. I feel like if I don't speak up, then the things that bother me will just keep happening to me. The people that hurt me will just keep hurting me.
I colored my hair...actually my stylist did it. He went a really dark red. Its fading but this is the first time that I don't really like it. I have always trusted him because he has never made me look bad. But again someone told me that he didn't like it and that I look better with light hair. I wasn't thinking much of it until he told me this. I'm the kind of person that takes things to heart. It can be a good thing but it is also my downfall.
I have only gone to the beach once this summer. I plan to go a lot more, but I do want to feel comfortable with my body. All my life I have had body issues. I always feel so fat and overweight. I'm working really hard to fix that. Confidence is never something that I have been able to master.
I miss reading books. I haven't read a book this summer yet. Instead I have been painting and playing the Wii. I bought a summer video game. Alice in Wonderland. But I beat the game in a week. Without cheating I might add. It was fun but too easy. Now I'm bored again. Lol. I need a lot of distractions to occupy my thoughts, or else I think way too much.
I write a lot of my personal life in my hand written journals. But I enjoy writing in this online blog, and I should do it a lot more.
