Trying to be normal

Competition season is finally over. Last weekend the Jewelettes competed in Houston. They came home with 11 awards. They did fairly well. I feel that they could have done better but only because I have seen them before.

I got a new haircut. One word: Bangs. They really do change a persons face. I have heard several comments from "It looks like a wig" to "You look like a doll". I'm not sure if they were meant as a positive but I took them and made them a positive. I don't mind looking like a doll, I think dolls are pretty. I even got a funny comment: "Ms, you look evil". HAHA. I think I am beginning to like it.

I have started another book. I have gotten into the habit of starting books and not finishing them. I started "The Golden Compass" but I have already seen the movie so I lost interest. The same goes for "Perfume". I tried to read another Jodi Picoult book but I'm finding that they are all similar. It usually takes me a while to get into it. I started reading "Lucky". So far it seems good.

Looking forward to the weekend :)

V-Day Weekend

I had a wonderful Valentine's Weekend! I can't say that about the day, but the weekend was a blast. I got to see "Definintely, Maybe". It was so funny. I loved the way they depicted time with the electronics. It turned out to be a good movie. I also saw "Across the Universe", which was a totally different type of movie. It was really creative and the little dancing it did have was awesome.

Time Off

I got home today and actually washed my car. It felt so helpful to do something so simple that it just cleared my mind and let me focus on the task at hand. No phone calls, no meetings, no yelling. Time for myself. Time for watering the lawn. Time for dinner. Downtime. I has been a long time since I have had that. It feels nice. I will enjoy it while I can.

My Dad comes home tomorrow from San Fran. He sent me a pic from his phone of the bridge and it looks so beautiful there. I always thought that I would live there, even though I have never been there. I was told once that I would enjoy it. He was mainly talking about the weather but I feel like I would agree with him.

I have my dance tech. students dancing lyrical. They seem to like it more and more each day. The only thing is that it is really stressful on my body, especially my ankle. It's sore and starting to hurt. I think it's because I do the same thing 5 times a day. It will get better soon. The good thing is that it is keeping me in shape.

I have this problem student. I haven't seen her since Jan. 9th and I mark her absent everyday. The only thing is that last week I saw her at an assembly for the school. I wrote her up and turned her name into the discipline office. Today she comes in asking for a pass to CIS and I told her "No, you need to come to class, get inside." She got all huffy and puffy and walked out of my office. She never returned. So I wrote her up again. I don't know if it is helping. I called to her house but both numbers are disconnected. I don't know what else there is to do. Looks like I have to fail another student. It's amazing how many students actually fail dance. On the upside some of the students that I previously had problems with are now starting to work with me more and even starting to shine. I wish all of my students cared as much as I do about dance but then again don't all teachers wish the same thing?

St. Jude

Today, my Mom took me to St. Jude Church in Pharr. It was a really beautiful place. I kinda wish I had known about it when I was younger so that I would've had a place to go to when I felt lost. I was a beautiful trip that I'm glad we made together.

My cousin had her 2nd Birthday party. Hannah was so cute. She sat and opened all her presents. I had bought a purple monkey at Target to put on the gift bag. She looked so cute holding it close and petting it. It made me cry to see a little gift mean so much. She walked up to her grandma and showed her the monkey. It was too cute. They go all out for her birthday. A moon jump, a slide, a cotton candy machine. It was fun even for big kids.

Saturday was the Drill Team competition and my girls kicked ASS! Literally. They returned home with 21 awards! For me, as a director, I have never come home with that many. I mean, hearing our name called over and over again was just awesome. Here is the website if anyone wants to look up the contest results ~~~~> www.danceadts.com

Another big win was Dynamite Dance Studio. They did spectacular. Well, their team mostly consisted of our girls but nevertheless they deserve a hand.

I feel bad for DanzForce Academy. I thought they would walk away with more. Those girls are so talented, their routines just needed to be cleaned more.

Nervous

This weekend is our drill team competition. It is pretty much everything I have been working towards for months. It all comes down to this one day. I hope the Jewelettes do well. We all have been working and stressing so much. My only wish is that everything go smoothly. Good Luck La Joya!

I had dinner with my parents tonight. I haven't seen them in a while. I did see them at the Superbowl, but it was with a lot of family, so it wasn't the same thing. I miss them. A lot. I know that sounds weird but I miss having someone there for me who care for me and love me no matter what. It really is a rare thing in life to have people like that. I thank God for my family.

My Dad is off to San Fran. for NADA convention. I hope this trip goes well for him.

All We Are

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors we're all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you, and all along
You we're shaded with patience, and strokes of everything
That I need just to make it, and I can see that...
Lord knows I've failed you, time and again
But you and me are all right

We won't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would have fit
I figured there's nothin to lose, I need to get
Some perspective on these words, before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground
Lord knows I'll fail you time and again,
But you and me we're alright

We won't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

And every single day that I can breathe,
You change my philosophy,
I'm never gonna let you pass me by

So don't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi (x2)


I love this song.... it's by One Republic and it came out on the Gossip Girl Reveled Episode. I fell in love with it. Enjoy!

Superbowl Sunday

Sunday was the Superbowl. I watched it at my uncles house. There has been a lot of stuff going on in my life right now. Much more than I can explain online. It seems as if I have gone back to journals. Some things are so private, I just don't want anyone else to know. Is that wrong? Does it make it seem like I have something to hide? I'm just not sure anymore. This blog was supposed to be for celebrating life, and documenting the wonderful things that happen to me, but what about the bad things? What about the stressful things? What about the scary things? One of the most scariest things is the "not knowing". Guilt is something that can eat you up and make you feel like there is no hope. If your lucky then there is someone you can count on to help you out through such emotional times.

When I go back and read my previous entries, I am reminded of how happy I was. I mean, not long ago, I was on top of the world. I was a winning choreographer! Now all I feel is down and out. Thats how life is, right?

Hopefully things will get better. I just have to keep praying.