The last months of 2010

So I'm officially out for Thanksgiving break and I have been doing a lot of thinking. I recently had a birthday. Perhaps my birthday is what started all the thinking but lately I feel like I'm at a stand still in my life. I guess you can say that I have the "itch". I have always wanted a family. It has always been a dream. There are snapshots here and there where I picture myself picking up my daughter from dance class, or taking my kids on vacation, things like that. I wish on stars. And for the past few months I have found my wishes changing. I used to wish for love and marriage. There are times that I get so very frustrated and upset but then I force myself to think, re-analyze and focus.