the musings and views of a life that is ambiguous and hazy but worth living :)
Learning to walk set you free. Learning to dance gives you the greatest freedom of all: to express with your whole self the person you are.
-Melissa Hayden

Monday, January 29, 2007

She's got the look


OK....I did it...I cut my hair....I think I look totally different!
You decide. In some ways I miss my old hair. In some ways I don't.

Competition is coming up. Deadlines are approaching. We have a Dance Showcase on Thursday (where all the schools in La Joya show off all the competition routines that they took to competition) AND a basketball game on Friday (where the girls are to perform three routines). I am literally pulling out my hair with stress. Some of these girls don't take it seriously. They are going to get their @ss kicked if they don't start focusing and working harder. I went solo on Friday and Saturday....meaning my director left to Houston to become an aunt. Never-the-less we got things done.

Work is not going so well. I had a parent conference last week and another this week. It's good that these parents are interested and involved, but if student's just did what they were supposed to, then everything would just mesh.

Mesh...a word from high school.....When I first heard it....I thought the guy sneezed....so polite me said, "Bless you" ....ya, really embarrassing.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Busy - Ness

OK...So, I know I haven't written in a really long time......but there is a very good reason for that....I am so incredibly busy right now its not even funny.
The holidays came and went, It is no longer 2006, and school has started again. The holidays were really fun. Marty came down and we spent every moment we could together. He is gone now, and I miss him more than ever. On the first week that we were back at school, I got in trouble. I wont go into specifics but...lets just say my principal was yelling. I also went to this legal workshop for Drill Team and Cheerleader Directors. One might think, "Oh, how can there possibly be any legal stuff to learn about drill team?" Well...let me tell you ...in La Joya ....people find ways. There has been so much drama and controversy lately that Teresa and I went to find out just how much people can push us around. Turns out not so much. People think they have a lot of power and by saying a few words or having connections think that they can possibly make someone else lose their job. Well now I am educated enough to say, "Stand in line!" LOL.....that was a little inside joke at the workshop.

This past weekend I cut my hair and dyed it back to brown. I was really nervous. I have had long hair for almost 8 years now, and had blonde highlights for the past 2 1/2. When I first went blonde, people looked at you differently, and treated you differently. I mean anything and everything changed. Peoples perceptions are often tied together with what you look like. It is a undeniable fact. First of all, having long hair (without color involved) deserves its own argument. Long hair = sexy. Short hair = serious. Look at a V.S. magazine. Name one model that has short hair. Look at all the famous news anchors. Name one with long flowing locks. Now color. Do blonde's really have more fun? I wouldn't be able to answer that fairly. I wasn't a total blonde. Just blonde highlights...but when I did shop at the mall, people assumed I was from Mexico and spoke Spanish to me. Why does a strawberry enter my mind at this moment? I know that when I went out, I felt confident. Will I lose that confidence? Has is been dyed and cut? Do I even need it? Or care? Or is it all in my head? Either way....I'm going back to my roots.

I took Bella and Jasper aka Frisky and Douglas to the vet today. They will be having operations done. My poor kitties. I feel like I abandoned them by dropping them off this morning. I also need to get another cage. They shared a tiny one, which literally had fur sticking out of it. The good thing is that they are getting pain medication to take home. We don't have practice today, so I get to pick them up right after school. I miss them already.

Its snowing in Austin, and it is reported to be traveling this way. I hope that it is and school will be cancelled, but with my luck, it probably wont even come this way. Still...it is wishful thinking

Even when I write I cant finish an entry......Update: My kitties came through ok...but Bella is very aggressive. She keeps growling and hissing at Jasper. Even charging and chasing him sometimes. I don't think she knows that Jasper went through surgury too and his was even worse because of complications. She wont hiss at me though. She even slept with me on the couch last night. I think she blames Jasper for everything she went through. I called the vet this afternoon to ask if this was normal or if I should be worried in any way. She said that Bella could just be upset at the situation and she could be taking it out on Jasper. Hmm... Do I see a pattern here? Girls being upset at something and then taking it out on someone they love? Anyway...she said if it doesn't go away in a few days to call again. I just want my kitties back to the way they were. Lovable and always in trouble.

Our school district didn't cancel classes. Boo. I wanted to look after the kitties and make sure they were ok. I also just wanted to stay home. My upper body is sore from push ups I have been doing with the students. There is a part in the dance where they have to do a handstand and I don't want anyone falling on their heads because of lack of arm strength. So, because I teach 6 classes a day, now I am sore.

This weekend I am planning to go the the Island with my mom for a drill team competition. I am going as a spectator this time. I attended last year but had to take care of two groups and I ran around like a crazy person. This year I am going for several reasons: To watch the La Joya middle schools battle it out, to watch Kellys and see how all the drama unfolded, to see what new routines and music ideas other teams have brought this year, and to scout what girls I want on my team next year. We are staying at the Radisson. A hotel I know very well, but when you have a drill team to watch, you very rarely get to stay at a place like that. So, I am looking foward to the weekend. Marty will be house sitting or should I say dog sitting. I wish I could be there with him.

I finally turned the heater on in my house. Two nights ago I turned it on for the first time. Then turned it off when I went to work. Then turned it on when I brought Bella and Jasper home, and I have had it on ever since. It is really nice. I hope I don't become addicted. As soon as the cold front passes by, I will turn it off.

Competition is coming up. We are sooooo not ready. Exactly one month away, and Three dances are still not done. I am so very nervous. This is why I have been so busy. Practice every day until 8 or 8:30 is not my idea of fun, but since we opted to have no practice during the holidays, now we are paying the price. I hope we do well but with teams that have had their dances since summer, I am positive it will be a tough compeititon. I don't think the girls realize that.