Some background before I explain.
I have drill team officer tryouts today. I'm actually not allowed to be in the room during tryouts so I'm stuck here in my office. My mom decided to charge her phone on my computer so it's here sitting in front of me.
It rings with a text message and out of curiosity I guess the pass code and start to snoop. Nothing bad just looking at the sent message first and then I start to scroll the rest of the messages. I come across my dads messages. I open them because I see it has my name in it. It talks of going to dinner with Mike and I the previous night... but then I start to scroll up....and tears start welling up in my eyes. I'm not too sure if its the hormones because I'm eight months pregnant now, but I read such beautiful messages to each other. Things like "Love you baby!!!" and responses like "Rough day, I needed that!!! Love you more!!!". My parents have been married for 33 years now and the way they still treat each other is inspiring. My picture on my phone for when they call is actually them holding hands when they thought no one was looking. My one wish in life was that I would find a man that would treat me the way I saw the way my father treated my mother. He loved her and still loves her more than I could possibly explain. He never told her no when it came to generosity. He showered her with praise on the way she would dress us (when we were little) and then again when she was constantly involved with our extracurricular activities (when we were older). Yes they had some fights here and there but then again who doesn't? I believe its healthy (when both parties respect one another) to disagree and then to work to resolve the situation.
If you know a little about me then you know that I waited until I was 31 to get married. To some that might be normal but to many that is a bit long. Well, like I said, I was waiting to find the perfect guy. The guy that would treat me like a princess. The guy that I would compare (in a good way) to my father. I did. I found him and he is a beautiful soul. I believe we complete one another in many ways. He is comical and I am serious. He is patient, and I could use some of that. He is always late. I run five minutes ahead of schedule. The list goes on and on but what I want now is for Jaycie to see the love. I want my daughter to hold her standards high. We all want what's best for our children. I really believe that the path to make that happen is to set the example. I know we love each other. I know it in my heart. We express love all the time. I think deep down we will show Jaycie our love, but I would still like to make a conscious effort.
39 More Days To Go!!!
