The School year has started. Well, at least for me anyway. Summer Camp for the girls is here and this is their first day. I started out with a little set back: My major* for this year has quit and all the officers have gone up a rank. I feel bad for them because they are nervous and still very young. I believe in them and I trust that this year will be good. As usual I have a lot of ideas and energy, so I'm going to try my best and help them as much as I can.
*(for those of you that don't know a major is the top ranked person on the team)
During the summer I got as much rest as I could. I slept a lot and had mini vacations. I went to S.P.I and San Antonio. I had a pretty good summer. I worked out for like the first three weeks and then I ran out of personal trainer sessions. Although I haven't been back at the gym since then, I did run with the girls this morning and plan to run with them everyday. It feels different to run outside rather than on a treadmill. It feels like I get tired very easily but I also feel like I get more out of it.
I think the thing I'll miss the most about going back to school is my kitties. I miss them already. They really kept me company during the day. Jackson never left my side no matter what I was doing: Taking a shower, reading a book, painting, even sleeping. She had all her favorite places while I was doing these things and loved being in eyesight of me. I will miss her very much. I did a lot of house cleaning over the summer as well. I liked having everything organized. Of course it could be that I was bored. I also did some yard work. My house is starting to look like a home. I hardly ever went out to eat, and especially gave up fast food and soft drinks. I learned how to cook (didn't turn out that great) but I am still learning and I know I'll get better. I eat a lot more fruit and feel like this summer was meant to get healthy, inside and out.
I have come to terms with the fact that I am staying alone for the rest of my life. I have loved and been loved and that is enough for me. The only thing that is missing later on will be children but that has never stopped single people. I know my family wants a grandchild to spoil but they will have to wait a while.
I have also been contemplating a career change. It scares me to death just thinking about it but ultimately, I think it will be for the best. Not working and not having an income is not something I am used to. I love my house very much and don't want to lose it. It also depends if I'll get accepted into the program but for now I need to concentrate on a few tests and finishing out the year.
Our high school is also changing scheduling. I will not get to see my performing group everyday. At the beginning this really bothered me. I felt a lot of pressure to have my kids perform every Friday at football games and felt there was never enough time to get things done. Now there is a chance where I will only see them two times in a singe week! That sucks! But with everything going on this summer, my new mentality is to not let things bother me so much. I even had a problem grinding my teeth and didn't even know I was doing it. The doctor asked if I was stressed. Lol, I usually am but not during the summer.
the musings and views of a life that is ambiguous and hazy but worth living :)
Learning to walk set you free. Learning to dance gives you the greatest freedom of all: to express with your whole self the person you are.
-Melissa Hayden
-Melissa Hayden
Monday, August 3, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
A lot of things have happened since i stopped writing. It's March already. Everything that I wrote about last year has come and gone. It's 2009 and here is my year so far....
Professionally: Really good. My drill team totally rocks.
Personally: Okay. My cat died. I got another.
I guess I just don't feel like writing.
Professionally: Really good. My drill team totally rocks.
Personally: Okay. My cat died. I got another.
I guess I just don't feel like writing.
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