Snoop

OK.... so first I have to admit I did something bad ... out of curiosity but still bad :(

Some background before I explain. 

I have drill team officer tryouts today.  I'm actually not allowed to be in the room during tryouts so I'm stuck here in my office.  My mom decided to charge her phone on my computer so it's here sitting in front of me. 

It rings with a text message and out of curiosity I guess the pass code and start to snoop.  Nothing bad just looking at the sent message first and then I start to scroll the rest of the messages.  I come across my dads messages.  I open them because I see it has my name in it.  It talks of going to dinner with Mike and I the previous night... but then I start to scroll up....and tears start welling up in my eyes.  I'm not too sure if its the hormones because I'm eight months pregnant now, but I read such beautiful messages to each other.  Things like "Love you baby!!!" and responses like "Rough day, I needed that!!!  Love you more!!!".  My parents have been married for 33 years now and the way they still treat each other is inspiring.  My picture on my phone for when they call is actually them holding hands when they thought no one was looking.  My one wish in life was that I would find a man that would treat me the way I saw the way my father treated my mother.  He loved her and still loves her more than I could possibly explain.  He never told her no when it came to generosity.  He showered her with praise on the way she would dress us (when we were little) and then again when she was constantly involved with our extracurricular activities (when we were older).  Yes they had some fights here and there but then again who doesn't?  I believe its healthy (when both parties respect one another)  to disagree and then to work to resolve the situation. 

If you know a little about me then you know that I waited until I was 31 to get married.  To some that might be normal but to many that is a bit long.  Well, like I said, I was waiting to find the perfect guy.  The guy that would treat me like a princess.  The guy that I would compare (in a good way) to my father.  I did.  I found him and he is a beautiful soul.  I believe we complete one another in many ways.  He is comical and I am serious.  He is patient, and I could use some of that.  He is always late.  I run five minutes ahead of schedule.  The list goes on and on but what I want now is for Jaycie to see the love.  I want my daughter to hold her standards high.  We all want what's best for our children.  I really believe that the path to make that happen is to set the example.  I know we love each other.  I know it in my heart.  We express love all the time.  I think deep down we will show Jaycie our love, but I would still like to make a conscious effort.

39 More Days To Go!!!

An Experience Like No Other

Silver Stars Showtime Nationals Competition 2014 

Silver Stars Bonding

Galveston, TX





This past weekend the JLHS Silver Stars competed at the Showtime Nationals Competition at Moody Gardens in Galveston, Texas.  It was a tough, long competition that lasted for 2 days.  We left Mission around 12:30 am....got to Galveston around 8 am started competing at 9 am and didn't finish until 10:00 pm.  We went to the hotel and slept very little because everyone had to be up and ready to compete again by 7:30 am.  We finished at 11:30 am, finally got to sit at a real table and eat, then walked it off for an hour at the "sea wall".  That part was actually fun...went back for a 2 hour awards show.  We ended up with four 1st place trophies:  2 from officers, 2 from team.  One 2nd place trophy from officers and one 3rd place trophy from team.  Overall we came in 2nd place in our division.  I think this was outstanding considering it was our first time at this competition and having so many teams in our division.  The stars were a little disappointed.  They asked to see scores and wanted to know how much they lost by.  Little do they know that the team that won has had years and years of experience along with a whole team of parents and family members who would go and set up props and backdrops.  This team had money and you could tell each one had outside training.  This team never stopped practicing.  They practiced in the halls, and it wasn't the director that was making them do it...it was the officer(s).  They called out the counts for the kids, they kept them in line, and they ended up winning.  Our girls looked tired and shaky.  They slept and ate (the wrong foods) all the time and were always sitting down ...even on deck.  To me those aren't signs of winners.  I told them repeatedly to get up, to practice, to stretch, but since they see the officers lounging, the team continued to follow. 

Anyways, our adventure was worth it.  I wanted the team to see what it was like being little fish in a big pond.  They have always been the top dogs for the past few years but that is because we have never been to a huge competition like this one.  It was always one day competitions.  Now they know if they want to compete they have to practice, and if they want to win... practice harder.

 

Now I can focus on the next few things in my life.  The tipsy canvas girls night out.  My baby shower, and the actual having a baby girl.  Everything seemed so far away before and now that this hurdle is jumped I feel like these things are right around the corner.   

 

 

56 Days to Go!!!!

Jaycie Marie

That's what we have decided to call her.... Jaycie Marie.
She is more loved than any other little girl on the face of the earth... and she still isn't even born yet.
Mike has been busy painting her room the colors we picked out together.  We decided to go with a light pink and a soft grey color scheme, accented with white.  He has done a good job so far.  Next is pulling out the carpet and installing wood flooring in her room.  Her grandmother and grandfather went shopping this past weekend.  She now has a horse on a stick from the King Ranch and a beautiful embroidered blanket with elephants on it.  That's the theme of her room.  Elephants.  Baby Mine has always touched my heart.  When I was little, I loved the movie Dumbo and the part where he visits his momma in jail and she rocks him always made me cry. 

I have been thinking a lot about what kind of parent I would like to be.  I imagine I'll be the strict one, and Mike will be the "fun" one.  My students have always said that they would feel sorry if I ever had any children because I would be so strict.  This is true.  My parents were strict with me and oh, I could tell you story after story, but to be fair... they are the best role models any girl could ever ask for.  I look around and see other families and their situations.  Broken homes, single parenting, all the way to silver spoon children who grow up rotten.  I am very lucky that my parents showed me a solid marriage built with good foundations.  I didn't get married more than once, I didn't have children out of wedlock, and I bought my own house at 23.  I have had and kept a steady job for almost 10 years now.. and all of that comes from the example that my parents have shown me.  If nothing else I hope I am a good role model for Jaycie.  I hope that she can aspire to be the type of woman I have become.  Because in some small ways... I think that all daughters grow up to be like their mothers.  For that I am grateful and truly blessed.  My mother is beautiful.  She is strong, capable, smart, kind, loving, generous and honestly my best girlfriend.  If I am one ounce like her I feel proud.  I hope that Jaycie can one day speak of me the way I see my mother. 

On a lighter note.... Pinterest and Etsy are my addictions as a mother.  I can say that not only does the Pinterest board give me ideas... I can say that I am incorporating them in my everyday life.  I see something on Pinterest, I look for it on Etsy and then I buy it... or make it happen.  I'll post some pictures on this blog ... I can't wait to finish her room so I can take some "after" pictures.  We took before ones and man are they sick.  Like literally the room makes you sick to be in there, but it's getting better everyday. 

90 more days to Go!!!

It's a girl!!!!

I need to start looking for baby names. 
I really like Katerina, Ella, Grace, and Everly..... anyone have some ideas?  I would really appreciate the input:)

Bad Morning

I know there are a lot of people out there that have it so much harder than I, but this is just a little recap of my "bad morning"

I have been going to sleep pretty early.  I guess I have been sleeping pretty deep considering I didn't hear the 4 texts around 11 last night.  I'm one of those people that checks out fb and email before getting out of bed.  Well I open the texts and I am appalled by what a loved one has written.  I get mad, hurt, sad, offended all at the same time.  First, because I still feel like I am in high school... sending text messages instead of communicating like adults.  Second, because of the context and Third, because I'm pregnant and all these hormones are making me feel things that I don't really know how to deal with. 

Instead of ranting about what was discussed, I want to use this post to analyze how I dealt with it. 

Being the emotional person I am, wrote a text out of anger.  None of it was malicious but brutally honest.  As soon as I finished I read both messages out loud to my husband.  Not getting the reaction I wanted, I called my dad.  Yes, I am a "daddy's girl" and if anyone gives good advice it's him.  By that time, I was in tears.  I have never been one of those girls that could come up with a smart comeback off the top of my head and my emotions make things way worse, so it took my dad a while to figure out what I was saying.  He advised not to send the text, and to keep the peace in the family.  I know, that by just calling him, that that's what I was going to do anyway, but I guess I still needed to hear it.  I didn't respond, but I am also not going to call either.  I am going to try to be the bigger person.  Yes, I'm ranting here but I truly believe that this is a healthy outlet.  My husband was really supportive when I got off the phone.  My only wish is that he would have talked it over with me so that I didn't have to run to my dad. 

That was just part 1

Instead of letting everything get to me, I decide to get ready for school and leave for work earlier so that I could stop and get breakfast.  There is a new McDonald's on the way to work and I have been craving a sausage biscuit combo with juice.  I take off with more time that I needed.  I order and am on my way.  I start eating the hash brown on the way to work because when I get there I won't have time to eat because I have morning duty.  As I get to the sausage biscuit, I notice its a lot lighter than it should be.  I open it up to find...... NOTHING.  It's empty and it is nothing but a biscuit.  Not even jelly or honey to go with it.  I look at the receipt to make sure I ordered correctly and yes it says sausage biscuit.  I decide to call and complain.  (keep in mind, I'm already upset) The phone just rings and rings.  I decide to call the "comment line"  on the top of the receipt and I end up speaking to a very friendly Chevrolet dealership secretary.  She says she has been getting so many calls because of this mistake.  So much for trying to complain.  I am determined to get a hold of someone from that McDonald's even if I have to go in and talk to the manager and complain because of the number on the receipts.  You don't mess with a pregnant woman's breakfast after she has had a shitty morning. 

Here is a picture of the receipt.   

The Baby that cries loudest gets the bottle

So for about 4 weeks I had a phone at work.... HAD.

Totally sucks that I have to give it up but so be it.  I still have my Internet phone!  So I guess I'm still "winning"  LOL

Today we have one of our last home games.  It was supposed to be homecoming but it was postponed so the homecoming committee could have enough time to prepare.

My Silver Stars will be dancing today!  It is a repeat but every time they step onto the field I still get nervous.  They have been doing really well so I'm not that scared.  I just hope everything goes as well as last week. 

My birthday was this past Saturday.  Mike showed up on my Friday game with the sweetest roses and purple flowers.  I have to use this post to express how much I am in love with this man.  He is my everything.  Who else would go to ALL of my games just to support me and the team?  He has made me so incredibly happy.... I used to think that I would never get to this point in my life and if you read my other posts, you kinda get it.... but he is the real deal.  There are times when he infuriates me but it never lasts for long.  He took me to the movies on Saturday to the new "Bistro" theater in Edinburg.  We saw "Gravity", and I thought it was awesome.  I was a little skeptical because I didn't know how an hour and a half movie with just one person floating in space would turn out, but it was good.  We also went to our church's kermese and after celebrated with family at the Republic of the Rio Grande.  It was one of my best birthdays ever!

"The Nine"

It's here.  The time in my life that I have envisioned since before I can remember.  BTW.. to update you.. we got married and have celebrated a year anniversary since my last post.  Mike and I are really happy.  I'm still working at Juarez with my beloved Silver Stars and Mike and his Summit Ambulance Company are doing really well. 

So far the year has had its ups and downs but nothing can compare to one of the biggest ups.  I won't go too far into detail as things are still really early.  The downs have really sucked though.  I recently had a "fight", "argument", "disagreement" with one of my ex-students.  Mind you I love all my students very dearly and have become so close to some that I consider good friends now.  This was just one that I thought I would be friends with down the road.  Turns out I was very wrong.  A lot of drama surrounded her during her four years here in drill team and I was always supportive of her.  I kinda knew that she could be misunderstood a lot of the time and she was still growing as a person.  I gave her a lot of slack.  I thought drama would end when she left and it would just be normal.... Boy was I wrong.  Turns out some of her high school friends turned to me to let her know that her bf was cheating on her.  Me, being the caring "friend" I am, thought that she would somehow at least listen to what I had to say.  Once again, wrong as ever.  I not only got the cold shoulder I got some disturbing texts next day from the bf's mom!  WTF!  I was so angry and felt so betrayed that I vowed never to talk to this little girl again.  She tried to contact me through email and later confronted me at a game.  I heard her out and don't believe anything she has to tell me.  She said she didn't know until days later that the mother text me, but since high school drill team girls knew and told me she knew I know that is a lie.  Besides, if you found out someone else committed a wrong, the first thing you would do would be to apologize right away on behalf of the other person.  Right?  Or at least try to make things right... and I don't mean a week later.  OH WELL... I learned that students don't always make friends later in life.  During the same week I had an altercation with one of the secretaries.  It was like beat up on Erika week.  lol... It's OK... because I pulled through. 

Things with my family have been going great.  My sister got married and my poor parents had to throw two weddings in about one year.  But, OMG was it soooo worth it.  She got married in the the countryside of London.  We all went up, got to know Simon's beautiful family and then got to celebrate practically three days.  It was like a fairy tale come true and I got to be apart of it. 

I'm looking forward to the next day off from school.  I'm so tired throughout the day.  I have really good classes this year.  Of course there is that one problem kid in about every class but so far they keep to themselves. 

Other than that my school year has started off to a great start.  We just finished up with six weeks grades and we are moving right along.  Till next time.