It's November and we are halfway through the semester. I had a lot going on so that's why I haven't been writing. This Friday is my last football game. We play Mercedes and the middle schools are coming to dance with us. I am torn between the emotions of sadness, excitement, and relief. I will miss our seniors very dearly. I think I am getting used to being left behind and having to start the year all over again. It was a lot easier this year. I was definitely more prepared which is always a good thing.
I wish I could see a glimpse into the future. Wouldn't it be nice to see what your life is like in 10 years? I have been recording Flash Forward for the last few weeks but have not gotten a chance to see them. I really haven't been watching TV all that much. I have been reading a lot lately though. I finished two books in about a month. One Jodi Picoult book called Keeping Faith and the latest Nicholas Sparks book The Last Song. Both were good. I feel like if you have read one Jodi book you have read them all. I no longer cry anymore.
**Update
It is now Tuesday and the game went well. I have a new CD which I am sooo in love with. If you haven't seen Glee you must. The singing and dancing are amazing and the songs are all the ones you love. Get the soundtrack. Its a must have.
There is only 9 days before I leave to London. My sister has planned so much for us to do, I am so excited. I have never had "High Tea" before but I am willing to try anything.
*******I wrote this in November and it is now May. It was saved as a draft because it was unfinished. I decided to post it anyway. *******************
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I must say... google... wow. Your that "interested" in me huh? Yes, I do hate you. Hate is a very strong word, but I choose it because, simply put.... I DO. Why can't you be a good girl and just stay away? People always say girls are "catty" and now I know why. There ARE girls out there that don't respect other girls and do as they feel. YOU ARE ONE OF THOSE GIRLS.
I know you have read my blog. Did you like what you saw, you know, aside from that last entry? Did you try to read up and study so that you would have ammunition? Or were you really curious? I present this challenge to you. Stay away. I know that being the bigger person is hard for you. I know that you have never met me. I know you know that I hate you already, but I am asking you this. Stay away. No calls, no im's, no visits, no drinks, no stupid sister joining in. Just stay away.
I know you have read my blog. Did you like what you saw, you know, aside from that last entry? Did you try to read up and study so that you would have ammunition? Or were you really curious? I present this challenge to you. Stay away. I know that being the bigger person is hard for you. I know that you have never met me. I know you know that I hate you already, but I am asking you this. Stay away. No calls, no im's, no visits, no drinks, no stupid sister joining in. Just stay away.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Line Camp Day 3
They are finishing up their kick routine in the morning, and learning their hip hop in the afternoon. I guess yesterday they weren't just tired because this morning they are in the same mood. Since this is their third day that could be a factor. Today is the 12th and it always means something special to me. This month is extra special.
*Update later tonight
*Update later tonight
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Line Camp Day 2
This morning the girls learned their competition hip hop. I liked the music cut and they really liked the dance. In the afternoon they had a master class from Keith Green. If you don't know about him.. Google him. I did. He was an awesome teacher and choreographer. The girls had so much fun and reminded them why they started dancing in the first place. I also joined the class because it's always an honor to take class from different people. I had the best workout. Yesterday I jogged 3.2 miles and I wasn't nearly as tired or sweaty then today. I love hip hop and haven't danced full out (from something I haven't made up) in a really long time. It was great, and its good to know that I still got it ;)
They are learning a kick as I write. They are not as enthusiastic about this one but I think they are tired, hot, and a little confused. Kick can sometimes be hard when th
ere is a lot of footwork involved. I took a picture of my treadmill work out yesterday because I was so proud. I could never run three miles. Ever. So I took a pic to make sure I had proof. BTW I'm so not going to the gym today. I had my workout. But, that kinda leaves me scared because then all I will have are my thoughts to occupy me and that is not always a good thing. I wish it was Wednesday. Then it would be parents day and I wouldn't have to worry about it. Maybe I'll visit them anyways.
They are learning a kick as I write. They are not as enthusiastic about this one but I think they are tired, hot, and a little confused. Kick can sometimes be hard when th
ere is a lot of footwork involved. I took a picture of my treadmill work out yesterday because I was so proud. I could never run three miles. Ever. So I took a pic to make sure I had proof. BTW I'm so not going to the gym today. I had my workout. But, that kinda leaves me scared because then all I will have are my thoughts to occupy me and that is not always a good thing. I wish it was Wednesday. Then it would be parents day and I wouldn't have to worry about it. Maybe I'll visit them anyways.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Line Camp - Day 1
Line Camp has started today. It is awesome. I absolutely love it. The staff from Elite Dance Company is so nice and prepared. In La Joya, we have always had guest choreographers come in and they have always been very inconsistent. You just never knew what you were going to get. They were not affiliated with any company so I think that sometimes made them lazy. My dancers have also surprised me. Some are lost, but others are starting to shine. One has great leaps, one catches on really fast, another is a great jumper, and one even has good toe points. I think they are exactly between intermediate and beginners, and have tons of potential. I really like that the staff is challenging them.
I don't know why but lately I have been feeling really insecure and emotional. I got all choked up on that stupid hallmark commercial (u know.. the one with the little girl that had butterflies flying around her because she was going back to school). I also think it had a lot to do with the music that was in the background. It was John Mayer. Need I say more. At the beginning of summer that was kinda the whole point of becoming healthy. You know outside and in. I heard that people with lots to lose care more about their actions in life then people with nothing to lose. It kinda pertained to jobs in general but I have been relating it to life lately. I think that is what I am kinda feeling. Scared of losing what is already shaky to begin with and not getting the reassurance that I desperately need. I need to be a stronger person and not care so much but that is nearly impossible for me to do. I was watching a documentary on H.B.O. (something i never do) but there was a lot of useful information and it sort of helped me realize some things.
More thoughts later today :)
I don't know why but lately I have been feeling really insecure and emotional. I got all choked up on that stupid hallmark commercial (u know.. the one with the little girl that had butterflies flying around her because she was going back to school). I also think it had a lot to do with the music that was in the background. It was John Mayer. Need I say more. At the beginning of summer that was kinda the whole point of becoming healthy. You know outside and in. I heard that people with lots to lose care more about their actions in life then people with nothing to lose. It kinda pertained to jobs in general but I have been relating it to life lately. I think that is what I am kinda feeling. Scared of losing what is already shaky to begin with and not getting the reassurance that I desperately need. I need to be a stronger person and not care so much but that is nearly impossible for me to do. I was watching a documentary on H.B.O. (something i never do) but there was a lot of useful information and it sort of helped me realize some things.
More thoughts later today :)
Friday, August 7, 2009
Picture Day
Today was the group photo and the individual photos for the Silver Stars. They looked so good. Everyone seems to get along. We did miss 5 people and I'm kinda upset about that but, oh well what can you do? I'm getting a haircut tomorrow. I really don't want to but I'm just not able to tell my hairdresser that I don't want to. I just started liking my hair again and now I have to cut it. I'm considering just changing it up entirely but don't know if I feel that brave.
I broke my key at school today. The secretary was really rude and said there were no more and that they will not make anymore. So ::sigh:: this year is already starting to look gloomy.
I had a really good workout today. 45 min. run and a small circuit of arms, squats, abs, and core. I built up a really good sweat and felt really good afterwards. I had been running with the silver stars outside and I really think that helped build my endurance. I always had trouble running 20 Min's on the treadmill. Now it's great. I hope I keep it up. Today I weighed myself and I have officially lost 10 lbs during the summer. I hope to lose at least 10 more.. then I would be really happy. It will be really hard now that school has started but I think if I keep eating healthy then I should lose at least 5 more. I have started eating right so it should come along slowly but I am a patient girl. Especially if it is worth it. I also talked to Lana after the gym. It was nice. She advised me on some stuff I had questions and emotions on today after hearing some very hurtful news.
Well, Jackson has been very loving lately. I think she misses me. I miss her when I'm at school.
I broke my key at school today. The secretary was really rude and said there were no more and that they will not make anymore. So ::sigh:: this year is already starting to look gloomy.
I had a really good workout today. 45 min. run and a small circuit of arms, squats, abs, and core. I built up a really good sweat and felt really good afterwards. I had been running with the silver stars outside and I really think that helped build my endurance. I always had trouble running 20 Min's on the treadmill. Now it's great. I hope I keep it up. Today I weighed myself and I have officially lost 10 lbs during the summer. I hope to lose at least 10 more.. then I would be really happy. It will be really hard now that school has started but I think if I keep eating healthy then I should lose at least 5 more. I have started eating right so it should come along slowly but I am a patient girl. Especially if it is worth it. I also talked to Lana after the gym. It was nice. She advised me on some stuff I had questions and emotions on today after hearing some very hurtful news.
Well, Jackson has been very loving lately. I think she misses me. I miss her when I'm at school.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Things I never knew
This is taken from a friends blog, who I hope he doesn't mind me being a "thief" and putting it in my blog. I just want to never forget it.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
A catch that gives up
It saddens me to know there are people out in this world that would be just a perfect person to spend ya life with and yet these people have decided to live a life alone. Yea its their decision but man that still kinda sux. I wonder sometimes about these people and exactly why it is they have decided that. They don't want a boyfriend or girlfriend. They don't want a husband or wife. They just want to be single. I know of one such person. I've known her for years. I've sent a few messages to her but she never responds. Hehe I don't think she very much cares to really want to. She has never really written much about her love life in her bloggin but it sounds like she gone through a lot of heartache. Which is rather unfortunate. My guess now though is that it has been just too much for her. I wonder also if maybe the demand of working played a bit of a role in that as well. Sounds like she spends all day at work and then gets home at night. Doesn't seem like she has much time for that kinda stuff to begin with. But still. Here is a girl that is simply beautiful. And just the greatest big smile. Always liked her smile cause she's not afraid to smile. I dun like smiling very much. And she lives a sort of healthy life. Works out. Stays in shape. Has a great figure. Just wow. Has a place of her own. Has a degree. Just a perfect catch. Yet she has decided to be single for the rest of her life. I always did have a sort of secret crush on her. Back then though she was taken. And then college came around. I had put pieces together to learn that she was single. But I never saw her at school. We didn't have any classes together and I was in athletics or anything so I was never in those areas. Always wish I had the chance to at least go on a date with her just once. Whether it worked out or not. Or something sparked or not. Just to go out with her just once. One movie. One meal. One thing though is that she always seemed to much high class. I was just like so far away from her league. I was lucky to have her for a class and to have her actual say hi to me and not ignore when walking passed each other down the halls or while she was with her friends. I had no money. To vehicle. No job. Hence the no money. All I had were pictures of her that I would take in class. I'm sure it drove her nuts. Probably liked me even less cause of them. But she would always just smile. I did however give her all the pictures towards the last of our days in school. Mainly cause they weren't my memories. They were hers. I don't know if she ever kept those pictures. Probably never did. Maybe even tossed them away. Or they got lost or something. Wish I knew at least how long those pictures stayed in her possession and if she ever looked at them. Such a great girl. I may not qualify much to ever be with her. Live paycheck to paycheck. Have to give plasma just to have money in between checks. Live with two roommates and combined we still can't afford the bills. Horrible debt. So not much really going for me in terms of a future. But would be nice to date her just once in my life. Just that chance to talk to her alone. Just that chance to maybe even see that smile again. I hope she doesn't stay single for the rest of her life. Such a perfect girl going to waste. Maybe someday she will find that somebody and it will be least expected. Ya know sometimes you find what you're looking for when you stop looking for it.
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Labels: Love, Non Fictional Adventure, Relationship Talk
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
A catch that gives up
It saddens me to know there are people out in this world that would be just a perfect person to spend ya life with and yet these people have decided to live a life alone. Yea its their decision but man that still kinda sux. I wonder sometimes about these people and exactly why it is they have decided that. They don't want a boyfriend or girlfriend. They don't want a husband or wife. They just want to be single. I know of one such person. I've known her for years. I've sent a few messages to her but she never responds. Hehe I don't think she very much cares to really want to. She has never really written much about her love life in her bloggin but it sounds like she gone through a lot of heartache. Which is rather unfortunate. My guess now though is that it has been just too much for her. I wonder also if maybe the demand of working played a bit of a role in that as well. Sounds like she spends all day at work and then gets home at night. Doesn't seem like she has much time for that kinda stuff to begin with. But still. Here is a girl that is simply beautiful. And just the greatest big smile. Always liked her smile cause she's not afraid to smile. I dun like smiling very much. And she lives a sort of healthy life. Works out. Stays in shape. Has a great figure. Just wow. Has a place of her own. Has a degree. Just a perfect catch. Yet she has decided to be single for the rest of her life. I always did have a sort of secret crush on her. Back then though she was taken. And then college came around. I had put pieces together to learn that she was single. But I never saw her at school. We didn't have any classes together and I was in athletics or anything so I was never in those areas. Always wish I had the chance to at least go on a date with her just once. Whether it worked out or not. Or something sparked or not. Just to go out with her just once. One movie. One meal. One thing though is that she always seemed to much high class. I was just like so far away from her league. I was lucky to have her for a class and to have her actual say hi to me and not ignore when walking passed each other down the halls or while she was with her friends. I had no money. To vehicle. No job. Hence the no money. All I had were pictures of her that I would take in class. I'm sure it drove her nuts. Probably liked me even less cause of them. But she would always just smile. I did however give her all the pictures towards the last of our days in school. Mainly cause they weren't my memories. They were hers. I don't know if she ever kept those pictures. Probably never did. Maybe even tossed them away. Or they got lost or something. Wish I knew at least how long those pictures stayed in her possession and if she ever looked at them. Such a great girl. I may not qualify much to ever be with her. Live paycheck to paycheck. Have to give plasma just to have money in between checks. Live with two roommates and combined we still can't afford the bills. Horrible debt. So not much really going for me in terms of a future. But would be nice to date her just once in my life. Just that chance to talk to her alone. Just that chance to maybe even see that smile again. I hope she doesn't stay single for the rest of her life. Such a perfect girl going to waste. Maybe someday she will find that somebody and it will be least expected. Ya know sometimes you find what you're looking for when you stop looking for it.
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Labels: Love, Non Fictional Adventure, Relationship Talk
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