St. Jude

Today, my Mom took me to St. Jude Church in Pharr. It was a really beautiful place. I kinda wish I had known about it when I was younger so that I would've had a place to go to when I felt lost. I was a beautiful trip that I'm glad we made together.

My cousin had her 2nd Birthday party. Hannah was so cute. She sat and opened all her presents. I had bought a purple monkey at Target to put on the gift bag. She looked so cute holding it close and petting it. It made me cry to see a little gift mean so much. She walked up to her grandma and showed her the monkey. It was too cute. They go all out for her birthday. A moon jump, a slide, a cotton candy machine. It was fun even for big kids.

Saturday was the Drill Team competition and my girls kicked ASS! Literally. They returned home with 21 awards! For me, as a director, I have never come home with that many. I mean, hearing our name called over and over again was just awesome. Here is the website if anyone wants to look up the contest results ~~~~> www.danceadts.com

Another big win was Dynamite Dance Studio. They did spectacular. Well, their team mostly consisted of our girls but nevertheless they deserve a hand.

I feel bad for DanzForce Academy. I thought they would walk away with more. Those girls are so talented, their routines just needed to be cleaned more.

Nervous

This weekend is our drill team competition. It is pretty much everything I have been working towards for months. It all comes down to this one day. I hope the Jewelettes do well. We all have been working and stressing so much. My only wish is that everything go smoothly. Good Luck La Joya!

I had dinner with my parents tonight. I haven't seen them in a while. I did see them at the Superbowl, but it was with a lot of family, so it wasn't the same thing. I miss them. A lot. I know that sounds weird but I miss having someone there for me who care for me and love me no matter what. It really is a rare thing in life to have people like that. I thank God for my family.

My Dad is off to San Fran. for NADA convention. I hope this trip goes well for him.

All We Are

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors we're all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you, and all along
You we're shaded with patience, and strokes of everything
That I need just to make it, and I can see that...
Lord knows I've failed you, time and again
But you and me are all right

We won't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would have fit
I figured there's nothin to lose, I need to get
Some perspective on these words, before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground
Lord knows I'll fail you time and again,
But you and me we're alright

We won't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

And every single day that I can breathe,
You change my philosophy,
I'm never gonna let you pass me by

So don't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi (x2)


I love this song.... it's by One Republic and it came out on the Gossip Girl Reveled Episode. I fell in love with it. Enjoy!

Superbowl Sunday

Sunday was the Superbowl. I watched it at my uncles house. There has been a lot of stuff going on in my life right now. Much more than I can explain online. It seems as if I have gone back to journals. Some things are so private, I just don't want anyone else to know. Is that wrong? Does it make it seem like I have something to hide? I'm just not sure anymore. This blog was supposed to be for celebrating life, and documenting the wonderful things that happen to me, but what about the bad things? What about the stressful things? What about the scary things? One of the most scariest things is the "not knowing". Guilt is something that can eat you up and make you feel like there is no hope. If your lucky then there is someone you can count on to help you out through such emotional times.

When I go back and read my previous entries, I am reminded of how happy I was. I mean, not long ago, I was on top of the world. I was a winning choreographer! Now all I feel is down and out. Thats how life is, right?

Hopefully things will get better. I just have to keep praying.

So Sick *Updated*

I was sent home from work on Tuesday. I left work around 2:30 and went to the doctors office. I waited for what seemed like forever. I had a temperature of 101.3 (and that's because I had taken Tylenol that morning) and I had blood work done and some breathing test. I got a shot and then went to fill my prescriptions. I got home and was literally in bed for the next two days. My Mom brought me dinner that night. Thanks mom! I still have the bruise from the blood work.

On the day that I got sick and had to go home, I received a package in the front office. It turns out that my little soloist Julissa Cuellar sent me flowers! Did I mention that during the Junior Competition last Saturday, my solo won 1st place. My girl was competing against two studio girls and beat them both! One of them had been champion for like years, so beating her was the icing on the cake. So her and her mom sent me flowers with a really nice card. That was so sweet.

So our dances are finally done and our Showcase is on Thursday. Our girls are definitely not ready but we are going to try our best.

So sick

I have the flu. I feel like I'm dying. Update later

Bella Baby

My kitty has been acting really funny lately. She has been meowing outside my door at night. Not a "I'm hungry, feed me" meow... it's a more wanting and longer sounding meow. It sounds really awful. She wants me to let her in to sleep with me. I let her in tonight and she walked around the bed for a while. She never stays in one place too long. She gets scared and distracted easily. She sheds too much fur for her to stay on the bed all night. I also think it's unfair to let her in and not Jasper. I was told that I favored Jasper more than Bella. I tried to rectify that by going out of my way to treat Bella nicer. Like giving her extra treats when Jasper wasn't looking. Or like tonight, letting her in with me. It just seems unfair now. I would let both of them in but Jasper tears up my bed and wants to play around too much. He would never let me sleep. So I keep them both out.